AD Visions - Episode 61 - Spock's Brain
For the barest of moments, I am back upon the Hellguard, being violated by the comely but vicious Linviaj. Were her words true? Was her mother T'Rea, who was Sybok's mother as well? Was her father, by way of stolen life---Sarek? If so, then the daughter she presented me with is perhaps better off dead. Children born too closely within the same line can develop mental instability. They have even been known to strike their bondmates.
I am immediately disturbed by these thoughts. Normally, I do not even allow myself to think them on any conscious level. I do not allow Jim to hear them, during our few melds. The Doctor is far too gentle a soul to bear witness to what became of me, at the hands of The Romulans. Though she tells no one, Uhura was perhaps more devastated by the death of Jim's nephew than he himself was. The tale of another lost child could be a telling blow to this strong heart.
Logic dictates, then, that I am not truly conscious. It further directs me to observe the unbound nature of my memories. They are an impetus. My mind wishes me to awaken, very, very badly. So I do, as a cutting tool of infinite precision is raised above my head. The would-be surgeon is no one I know. What happens next is difficult for me to quantify.
My feelings of violation once again assert themselves, quite savagely. My assailant was trying to take something from me. I will not have it. Without thought, I break the hand that wields the cutting tool.
The woman cries out, but attempts to push me back down with some force. I gain my footing, but she moves like a Caitian, and strikes like a Kzinti. It is as though she knows every fighting art ever crafted, anywhere. My kick breaks her good arm, keeping her from a series of medical devices I am now quite certain she knows how to use. Her own legs keep me back, and again she surprises me with how dexterous she is. Holding a Phaser One between her large toe and second toe, I am still nearly taken prisoner.
"You fool! I am losing The Knowledge!"
I do not know her meaning, but must consider her loss to be my gain, barring other information. But her skills and her speed, whatever their source, are still ranging in multiples of my own. I must keep her from taking whatever it is she wants from me. I will not be violated again. I therefore speak words certain to drive me into the frenzy I require.
"The Captain's son is alive, and I have not told him this. He is held by Starfleet Command itself, on Earth."
My ultimate betrayal. Worse even my causing Jim to forget Rayna. I have left a 13-year old boy, son to my Thy'la and my own kin as well, to rot in a pedophilic hell. My mind shuts down as I beat my confession's only witness into absolute submission.
Forgive me, Peter. For the brief time I knew you, you seemed like a good young man. You and your father deserved better.
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"Near as I can figure it, Jim, her attempt to remove Spock's brain awoke the Vulcan of 5000 years ago. We can trace her home, but she'll be in stasis for quite a while. He did a real number on her."Jim stared at the young woman who had taken down his entire ship for a purpose they would only learn of later. She was not a pretty sight.
"So this---procedure--of hers awoke some memories in Spock? Bones, has he ciphered anything out?"
"So far, all he's certain of is that he and Commander Linviaj had a conversation while he had her in transit to Starbase 27. Our Romulan 'guest' said something about captive Vulcan children before her own people's cloaked craft showed up to execute her. If I know Spock, he's already trying to complete the memory."
Kirk nodded.
"I'm glad he survived. Losing him on top of Mom and Peter, all in one year....I don't even like to think about it. Spock...will tell us when he's ready. I know he'd never keep anything back from me. Ever."
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Once again, my fabricated story meant to cover my summary execution of Linviaj served me well. In time, I will 'reveal' the existence of Hellguard, and if The One Of ShaKaRee is willing, recover Saavik-kam.
I live multiple lies, and one day they will all catch up with me. I see the accusing faces of Jim, his son, and my own daughter, angered and ashamed of having known me. In a vision, I see Jim killing me at long last, unable to tolerate the weakling I am becoming.But for now, the shame of my violation washes over both truth and lies.....
-------------------------------------------"And so, this world developed with a unique schism between men and women. With 'The Teacher' completely disabled, the women must now live on the surface. With my assailant recovered and returned to her people, I am preparing a paper for The Vulcan Academy On Mental Arts. Doctor McCoy's theory on how this attempted removal of my brain instead awoke my latent savagery is a most fascinating subject. It should be a good paper."
Spock's Brain never left his body. But so much of it was locked away by a pained procedure only Spock himself could undo.
THE END
(Note : I deliberately chose the 'very worst' episode to give this sub-series its test-run. Any comments?)